Silent Hurricane

             

 

Love is a battlefield

One that I'll never understand

You fight to love a person 

but it turns to shit in the end

You think you know someone

all their quirks flaws and favorite things

But when it comes down to the real questions

You're able to see their true intentions

You say you love me

so let's explicate this feeling

You say all the things you love

Like you're funny, smart 

and I understand your healing

It's funny though...

Because the same words you used to say to me

Is exactly all the reasons

you underestimated me

You threw all those words back at me

Within a blink of an eye

Saying "that's why all those dudes left you" 

and I felt like I could die

Because when I started to go crazy

overthinking, over feeling and even loving you too much

You treated me like shit, hit up your ex saying you loved that bitch

 and we were really out of touch

No one knew you cheated

and I'm ashamed

I let it slide not once, not twice but three times

and I really got played

I'll never forgive all those sweet nothings you said

even when "let's get married" came out of your mouth

I'll remember that I made the right choice that day saying no

Even if it killed me to see how our relationship went south

You're a contradiction, a paradox 

and a hypocrite too

I thought to myself I'd never learn

But eventually it's something I came to do

Three years later and I'm thankful for this lesson...

I'm laughing as hard as ever 

As I remember that horrible year of pain

I was partying way too much

Too numb, too fragile and that's when I realized

I was blessed to have all the knowledge that I gained

I realize now...

That love should never be a battlefield unless

Your fighting for a blessing

I go hard for the one I love now..

I have you to thank for that

Because now I know what I want in a man

is something you truly lacked

Some things cant be taught,

They can only be discovered

Like how you never were a man

It was only a façade

I can't make you something you're not 

And that's me swearing on God

So this is goodbye today, now and forever

I'll never go back to the past

Because I undoubtedly know better

xoxo,

The Muse